mimetic: anonymous comments meme

[prosicated]

I'm sorry, my brain is fried and I'm getting such a kick out of reading other people's anonymous post memes that I need to do it too.

Please respond to this entry anonymously. There is no theme or reason, I am just curious to hear from any and all of you who read this. I would love it if all of you would respond.
Post anything. Post a story, a secret, a confession, a question. Post your fears, loves, lusts or hates. Post the lyrics to a song or the words to a poem. Post whatever you like.
Whatever you reply with, be sure to do so anonymously and honestly. Post as often as you like and check back to see any responses.

I have turned off IP logging. When (and if) I turn it back on, I will update this post to protect anyone who comes to the game late. All comments should be anonymous, I will screen all posts with user names as soon as I see them (and possible repost them as anonymous).

Thanks for playing,kids!

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

i worry that i used up my completely happy allotment at a poor time. it's not that i'm not prepared to be very happy doing other things with my life. it's just that i don't know how to recapture the sense of magic from another time. some of it was college...being able to have all that freedom and things feeling so possible...most of it was this person whose life kept getting tied up with mine in a way that made me feel wide awake & thrilled all the time. after i moved & started working, and that person & i didn't get along anymore, i still felt the magic..it was more diffuse, but it was there. things still happened in my life that thrilled me...those unbelievable things that would make most people go 'huh' or 'so what' that made me feel like i had gotten very lucky in being assigned a creative life script writer who liked me lots.
things don't feel like that & haven't in a while. and i miss it. there are so many things that i need to do and work on and plan to have the kind of life i want, & i'm working hard on them. i want that feeling back to though. i don't think it was all circumstantial. it felt like i wasn't on my right path & that that's when i got seperated from that feeling. i hope it comes back now.